On December 16, 2014, I turned 65. I think it was the Government that made me old. Medicare and Supplemental insurance bombard you with so much information about making sure you are taken care of that I'm going to blame it on them. Every nap I take, every groan I make, every change I fake, is their fault for making me believe that I am old, old, old. And then I had to watch my "never gonna change" husband get old too. Luckily for him, in October they made him get the coverage too and then he really needed it and now he's in the system and obsessed with it. Ugh!
Being an old lady made me look at things differently. Like my husband. I look at him and remember how much we loved each other when we were young and beautiful and it makes me smile. I didn't realize how much I loved him still through all those years since I turned 55 and thought I was still young enough to change myself and the world. Now I know better. I won't see change unless it is forced upon me. The husband always knew that.
I've also come to understand that though I love spending money, there is nothing I need to spend it on. Why get a deck after all these years when the backyard is fine like it is? Why buy new knick knacks when you have enough to dust now and don't dust them? Sometimes I consider shopping in my own house.
So, thank you, Medicare, for making me aware of my own vulnerability that I didn't have until you reminded me of it. Yeah, thanks a lot.
